Hello there.
Do you see me?
Do you really?
What do I look like?
Beautiful you say?!
Do not lie to me!
Tell me what you see and for the love of God be honest!
You say you see courage?
Strength in my eyes?
Are you a mad man seeing that which is not?!
I asked only for you to be truthful!
Do not try to fool me with your charm!
I am most certainly not captivating!!
Why do you insist on these lies?
You do not even know who I am!
What motives would posses you to torment me so?
Am I so wretched that you feel you must lie to soothe my pride?
Please sir, tell me what you really see.
Kind and generous?! Preposterous!!
Loving and joyful?! I am having no more of this!
I am most certainly not funny!
Why do you insist on this confidence as you call it?!
Intelligent?! Sir I am no more wise than the boy on the street!
Dear God is there no one who sees me as I really am?!
Why does no one see the ugliness that fills each pore of my being?
Why does no one see the bottomless depths of my sadness?
Why does no one see the evil that burns in my eyes?
Why does no one hear the venom with which I speak?
Why does no one see the ocean of tears that threatens to drown the universe?
Why does no one see the gaping hole in my heart for which there is no salvation?
Why does no one feel the pain radiating from my soul?
Why does no one see the anguish that each lie threatens to suffocate me with?
Dear God what is wrong with this world?!
Dear God when will they see the turmoil within?
Dear God could it be me who is wrong?
How can I not see myself as I am?
What are these people who can see what I cannot?
Dear God am I going mad?
Have I finally departed from sanity?
Have I finally escaped the weight of the struggle?
How is it that I am two people at once yet each is as real seeming as the other?
Dear God you are the only one who sees me as I truly am.
Please divine unto me an answer for I fear death may come for me prematurely.
Till then I will remain here on the throne they have shackled me to with their lies.
Hurry, I fear my tears may flood your oceans and engulf the world in my anguish.
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